When I die.

This is dedicated to everyone that has lost someone.

When I die, I want to die with the whisper of God in my ear calling me home, not surrounded by chaos or commotion.  I want to be surrounded by my loved ones holding my hands, making me giggle, fixing my hair and reminding me that they are not sure how bright their tomorrow will be if they lose me today.   When I die, I want to leave a testimony so grand and a legacy so significant that endowments will be started in my name.  I want books to be written from my words and plagiarism to happen based on my poems. 

When I die, I don’t want to die at the hands of another person or even my own; I want to drift off to sleep as my last breath carries me into the afterlife. I don’t want to die tragically.  I don’t want to die anonymously.  I don’t want to die without saying my fond farewells, giving my children my plans for their futures or my sweet potato pie recipe.  When I die, I want to go with a smile on my face and a thank you on my lips to the people who helped shape my life.  I don’t want to die without one last prayer and one last communion.  

When I die, I want to be remembered for who I have always been…Me.  When I die, I want my eulogy to be filled with funny anecdotes about how much I loved coffee or the impacts I have made, not the horror of the facts surrounding my death.   When I die, I want you all to know that we must continue to be kind to each other and be what God has intended us to be.  I don’t want you to spend your forever closing the gap between the current you and the intended you, but speak out against the people that are doing you harm, standup for those that can’t stand on their own, love the people that God purposely gave you and make your mark on this world TODAY.  You may not die today, so it is your vow to live without hesitation and with motivations of complete freedom. Don’t allow the “shoulds,” and” musts,” and “oughts” to hinder you.  When I die, I WILL be remembered.  Will you?